3:04 p.m. - 2004-05-22
It´s raining pretty heavily outside... It looks beautiful, I should go walking or something.

You know, I´m so fucking tired. Not physically, but mentally. Like really worn out... I hate how my life has not meaning at all. It´s just going to school, getting home, listening to people who obviously hate me, moving to mum´s, moving to dad´s... Blah. I´m so ready to leave all this! Now, I´m not talking about killing myself (not anymore), no, I have far too big plans for my future. I just want to move away, live my life. I want to move to a bigger city, buy a nice flat and do things I love; write, design clothes, study... And I really want to find someone, who listens to my troubles and can bring some warmth and security in my life. Or am I just being immature to want to have these things? Maybe... I don´t even know anymore.

I really want to work with sports. Really. Either with hockey or with F1´s. But what I need to do now, is consult with my careers councler/teacher Nana, and see if she has a good advice for me.

Go Schumey! I´m sure you´ll own Monaco this year.

xoxoxo, Jasmin